Gay/ Not Gay

I hear it everyday
Oh my gosh he is so gay
by the way he walks talks and acts
by the way he looks
I am gay
I do not look different
I do not talk different
I do not walk different
I do not act different
I am the same as you
it hurts when people say
Oh my gosh he is so gay
stereotyping is all fun and games
until you hurt someone deep down
I am gay, I act the same, I talk the same, I walk the same,
I look the same
Though it may be true, yes I am gay
But no I am not gay, Not in the slightest

...fml...

I am feeling sick and ugh this has not been a good year...fml...i wish it was over especially because of a specific teacher who treats me like shit...fml...

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I am having one of those days where you just hate EVERYTHING and everyone. Sometimes I wish I could crawl under a rock and die. i am so stressed out at school i just want this year to be OVER. i am always so lonely and i hate it because it hurts to know that no one will love me... and especially when some annoying ugly ass people can get a seinor.. why does it always have to be me who is the strong one for everyone why can't i cry on anyone's shoulder why can't someone else be the one to say it is going to be ok..why..i always feel like no one likes me they just tolerate me because they feel bad for me.... i wonder if anyone will ever love me..i guess not...on the bright side i saw NSN last night and he is AWESOME!!

in civics class

hmm so lets see, today I am not the happiest mainly because I failed this test...:( idk if im gunna make it back next year and it is upsetting me because I really love this school and everybody here and this school is stressing me out because if i don't pass they (my parents) will take me out of the school and I REALLY don't want to. i just hope i can pass this year well i have to take some notes so bye!.... :-(

WTF moments

WTF is up with her (her being a girl at my school) i mean damn how rude is she and like ughhhh idk i wish i had someone i could talk to :(

ugh...boys...school...mentor...whats new?

there is A LOT of shit going on right now and it is REALLY over whelming like i have so many projects on top of PILES of homework i get so stressed out i just don't do it so then i get a bad grade and im like damn i need to do better and it is so omfg im going to scream if this doesn't stop then i get so lonely cuz i don't have a boyfriend to cry to and it makes me sad so i end up crying alone or to make my self fall asleep and it gets EVEN WORSE when the dude i like spends the night like tonight and i just want to confess how much i am in LOVE with him but he has a girlfriend so im like damn i can't do this he will NEVER be my friend again so i just have to smile and be happy except the night after i met him he made me so upset i finally just gave in and started crying three of my BEST gal pal's comforted me and it turns out it was all a misunderstanding and he is ALWAYS flirting with me so it makes me feel SOO FREAKING BAD...... so as of right now my life sucks all because of boys and school :( life sucks but on the bright side i got a mentor at school and he is so nice and cute and omg but i know i cant date him,
1. because he is over 18 and ya know
2. he is at college so all the college girls
3. idk if he gay
4. he wouldnt go for me
5-10. he is my MENTOR
whats new is ive started playin tennis and hopin to lose weight and stuff an we got a puppy that is annoying the f**k out of me.

bye yall

in cpu class, valentines day

ok so last night me and this Boy started talking,s thanks to one of my friends and i have started to like him A FREAKING LOT and he is all like you know we can't even kiss if we go out (he is 17) and im like it is a year an a half and he is all i can't controll my labedo and im like seriously and he was5 like yea and i was like well nvm then he said sorry im like it ok and that is how we left it. but im having my bff talk to him for me so idk if i will get him or if i won't. plus it is valentines day and i hate life right now cuz i don't have a boyfriend and it makes me depreased well thats all for today :)

The Social Network

ok well i just watched the social network and it was good but now my mom doesnt want me to go to harvard lol so i have no idea...

1.20.11

well i have decided that there is no if and's or but's about it i have to go all four years there is no one year commitment i HAVE to go ALL four years. plus i would be a VERY big dissapontment to myself and my family if i stoped going here even though it is very challenging i still enjoy it and i am starting to get better so that's a plus